I share these photos because even in our heartbreak and loss we saw the beauty and we want you to as well.
The evening before Andy died there was a song circle outside our bedroom window. Beautiful voices of friends and family helping Andy find his way.
And in the morning after he passed we lovingly prepared our cabin to hold his body for two days and our farm to receive visitors to say goodbye. An around the clock vigil was set up with friends and family taking shifts sitting inside the cabin and also outside at a fire that continuously burned.
And then food arrived and tents to protect from the rain and so many children and friends. In the midst of deep ache there was comfort in our surroundings. The girls and I walked many times from cabin to fire to house and back again. Always held.
And on the last morning the beautiful box that Andy’s dear friends had built arrived and we placed him in it with cedar and pine and so many beautiful flowers and small tokens of love.
And as the children sang and collected more flowers his body was carried up the hill behind our house to the place his dad and brothers had dug one shovelful at a time.
And beautiful words were said, and another song was sung, and we took turns tossing sacred earth into the hole. And we stood in a circle and looked inward at each other and recognized that Andy was now there in each of us, and we turned outward and looked beyond at the greatness of nature that is now Andy. And then out of nowhere the fawn appeared.
Our hearts have much healing ahead but please know that each and every one of you who has held and supported us will never be forgotten. Your comfort is felt. We love you so.